[13 || backdated to 11/08; voicepost]

[sweetdeath]

...I don't know why I keep thinking about it today. It's been a long, long time.

It took a long time, too. But I remember all of it. I don't think anyone there realized that I knew what was happening, even when I couldn't move. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have known where to find sharp things when I had those lucid moments. But even then -

I just wish I knew how to get the scars to fade. That I didn't have to hide them with my watch. That I could stop remembering why.

I...

I don't know why I want to talk about this today. [unsteady laughter] It's probably a curse, isn't it? Yeah. I...

Sorry.

Comments

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[kageseii.livejournal.com]

Tsuzuki-san...?

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[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

Hey, Tatsumi. I guess you should probably just ignore me today.

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[kageseii.livejournal.com]

... I can't do that.

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[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

It's not something I ought to be talking about, though. I mean. It's not like I want to, I just -

Shouldn't. I.

...you aren't feeling like you have to talk about, you know. How you died. Right?

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[kageseii.livejournal.com]

No. It's just a curse, I'm certain, Tsuzuki-san.

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[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

I wonder how much it'd take to bribe the deities to go back to that milkshake curse instead.

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[kageseii.livejournal.com]

Probably far too much. Underhanded that they are....

[baixin.livejournal.com]

...

[scienceinacan.livejournal.com]

...hug, Tsuzuki?

[ooc; :D ...:D ]

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[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Yeah, probably.

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

...Takiko?

S-sorry. Don't mind me today.

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

I'm not gonna turn it down if you're offering.

...Sorry. It's a curse. I think.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

...

Please don't apologize to me. It wasn't your fault.

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

[shaky laughter][

Just that I shouldn't be... making people listen to that. I thought about screening it, but I couldn't quite... I don't know. It's probably a curse.

[scienceinacan.livejournal.com]

I'm offering, of course

[baixin.livejournal.com]

It's a curse.

[Silence for a moment.]

This is probably a bit redundant to ask, but--are you going to be all right?

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

Just as fine as ever. Don't worry about me.

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

...then thanks.

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

Oh, and I'm in the apartment.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

...This time I'm going to say it; you're lying to me, aren't you?

Please don't.

[scienceinacan.livejournal.com]

Watari and 003-- off to your apartment to deliver hugs of love!

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

Oh, how's she doing?

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

It's true. Well, mostly.

Having to think about the way I died isn't as bad as it could be.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

...

As long as you're sure.

[private~]

[cinnagami.livejournal.com]

I... yeah. Thanks, though. I appreciate it. Really.

I still don't know if it was the right thing to do, but it was more right than anything else I did for a long time.